bitter..

Nakakainis isipin na sa dinami-dami ng tao, dun pa sa kumplikado ako nagkaganito.
Kung tutuusin,ang dami namang naghahangad na sana sila nalang bigyan ko ng atensyon pero nasayo parin ang atensyon ko.

Nasasaktan ako. Nagseselos. Kahit hindi naman dapat. Siguro, namimiss ko lang yung dati..

Hindi ko alam kung bakit hinahayaan ko lang na ganito,kahit na alam ko namang may choice ako.

Nakakaramdam na rin ako ng pagod. Magsasawa rin ako sa ginagawa ko. Sobrang naguguluhan ako sayo. Sinasabi mo na gusto mo parin ako. Ipinaparamdam mo pa kung minsan. Pero mas ramdam ko parin na inde na tulad ng dati.

Natuwa ako ng malaman kong gusto mo pa rin ako..kaso, syempre mas gusto ko kung tulad nalang ng dati.

Sana lang, by the time you made up your mind, anjan parin ako.

“sana ako nalang”–gosh! haba ng hair ko..Ilang beses ko na ‘to narinig sa ibang tao.
“sana maramdaman mong inde na ikaw ang option ngayon.ikaw na ang choice”–ang sweet.sobra.sarap pakinggan,pero walang ganung effect.

Naalala ko months ago, before summer, may nabasa akong horoscope. yeah, i know horoscope lang yun pero parang nagkatotoo eh. Weird, naaalala ko parin yun.

LEO:
“by march — you will be inlove in a totally off-limits person.”

hmpf! bakit parang nangyari yon??

ay naku..ang gulo talaga.ewan ko na. basta ang alam ko, mapapagod rin ako. kaya hinahayaan ko nalang sarili ko. bahala na si Bro.

..kakapagod maging option. pwede namang choice nalang dba?

For the third time this week, I was surprised by three different persons.

The first one was about the stuff toy thing-y.
“gusto mo ng stuff toy?ibibili kita.”
“gusto ko mas malaki sakin.haha”
“pag iipunan ko.sa birthday mo.”
~I was really surprised to know that he still remembers this.~

the second was a call.
“kelan balik mo dito?”
“sa birthday ni Lourice.”
~Out of the blue he said this again while we were talking.~

**Nice to know that these persons remembered what they had said.**

the third was last night, about the flowers.
~~Thank you. For the flowers, effort and everything. But I think you really shouldn’t have to. I value our friendship more. I do appreciate the effort. Sorry.~~

A not so planned agenda for the day turned out to be fun!
I enjoyed this day. Today was full of laughter and stories.

Missed going out with this person.
And for my surprise, I didn’t expect that he still remembers the stuff toy thing..hehe

Nice to know he still remember the things I thought he had already forgotten.

SIGURADO KA BANG IKAW LANG ANG GIRLFRIEND NG SYOTA MO?

part1

STICK TO ONE. Masarap makilala as stick to one, try niyo maging, one of the best compliments ever!

Kapag ikaw, may pagtingin ka pa sa ex mo, wag ka munang magpaka-attach sa panibago. Automatic REBOUND ang bago mo! Utang na loob! :)) Alam mo yung 3-month rule? USO YUN! Sa 3 months na yun try mong maging SINGLE.. Yung as in wala ka munang kiber sa kahit na sinong opposite sex, may commitment man o wala basta putangina 3-month rule sabi eh!

part2

Okay sabihin na nating wala ka nang pagtingin, pero gusto mo pang pagtripan, papampam ka, tantanan mo na siya lalo na kung ikaw naman ang dahilan ng break up ninyo. Tapos may bago ka na, o kaya may bago na siya, basta nagmmove on na ang isa. Spell the word H-I-Y-A!

BEST FRIEND. BES. BEST. BESZ. BEZ. BESH. PUTANGINA WHATEVER YOU CALL IT. There’s no such thing as best friend. Oh walang kokontra, applicable lang naman to sa mga taong alam na ngang may malisya sa kanilang sariling so-called best friend ayaw pang aminin kahit mismo sa sarili nila. Apir tayo kung may kilala kang ganito ang sitwasyon! Ganito kasi yan, si girl at si boy may sari-sarili silang jowa, pareho silang committed kaya dinadaan nila sa BES SHIT para hindi halata. Hainako ang dami kong kilalang ganito! :)) Kung alam niyo lang, yung mga jowa niyo maytinatagong selos sa mga bes niyo! HAHAHAHA. Hindi sila tanga, nakakaramdam sila. DUH.

part3

Hmmm, what else. Sige iba pang sitwasyon, maraming mukha ang cheating eh! KABIT. Magpapakakabit ka habang favorite mo ang kantang Kabit ni Gloc-9 ganun ba? Haha! Wag kanang kumabit sa may commitment na, kahit na sabihin mong gusto rin niya, eh kabit ka nga lang eh.Panira ka lang. Kayo namang mga adik, wag na kayong magkaroon ng kabit, para naman kayong walang girlfriend/boyfriend na tao eh!

SAMANTALAHIN ANG BAWAT PAGKAKATAON. GRAB EVERY OPPORTUNITY. Hay nako marami din akong alam na ganitong kwento ng buhay! Pareho silang committed, kaya naman kapag may pagkakataon silang makawala sa mga jowa nila, magkikita at magkikita yang dalawang yan tapos magdedate, magmomoment, magffeeling magjowa, and all that. Pwede ring isa lang ang committed sa kanila, basta bawat pagkakataon di nila palalampasin yan pramis! :))

part4

INUMAN. “Bhe, lasing lang ako.” FUCK YOU! Isa pa, FUCK YOU! :)) Ieexplain ko pa ba to? Sige sige. In my YEARS of drinking alcohol, I’ve tried many kinds of alcoholic beverages. DUDE, kahit may amats ka alam ko at alam mong imposible na 0% ang awareness mo sa pinaggagagawa mo. There’s still something inside of you na alam na mali ang gagawin mo pero dahil psychologically speaking, iniisip mong nakainom ka, kaya GO KA LANG! In the first place, hindi ka rin dapat nakikipag-inuman sa kung kani-kanino lalo sa mga HOT. Or else gusto mong patayin sa nerbyos at pag-aalala ang jowa mo.

Para sa mga lalaki, “Lalaki ako, I have my needs!”. LINTEK KA, hindi girlfriend ang kailangan mo. SEX is one of the biggest aspects in cheating. Oh well, pwede rin pala sa mga babae ito. Ganun na ang henerasyon natin ngayon.

part5

LIWALIW. You’re just having fun, when the cat is away, the mouse will play. Mahal mo siya kapag nandyan siya, kapag hindi mo siya kasama automatic single ka. Parang ayaw mong palampasin lahat nang isda sa dagat.

EXTRA SIM. 2ND YM ID. ETC. ETC. ETC. Cheater ka kapag meron kang medium of communication na tinatago mo sa jowa mo. Oh ano? Ganun ka ka-desperate na makausap kung sino man yung kinakausap mo nang patago? HAHAHA. Aminin natin yan may mga gumagawa nito. :))

part6

EMPTY INBOX. NO SENT ITEMS. MARK ALL, DELETE. MARK, DELETE. Lahat man o pili lang na messages, bago ka makipagkita kay jowa dinidelete mo na ang mga mushy bullshit sweet nothings niyo ng “iba” mo. Hainako halata parin yan noh! Marami nang nagbreak or nagworld war 3 dahil sa cellphone! HAHAHA! Kasi naman, kung magbubura kayo, siguraduhin ninyong simot, minsan may natitira eh! Hahaha! Cheater kana nga lang di mo pa galingan diba! HAHAHA! (Sabay bigay ng advice na wag magpahuli eh noh!)

Nauubusan nako, sa dami ng tumatakbo sa isip ko kanina parang I can’t put them into words. Kahit medyo barubal pagkakasaad ko ng mga dakilang halimbawa, alam kong getching na getching niyo yan! AH BASTA..

NO TO CHEATING!

**copied from janine.
http://lovelikejesus.multiply.com/**

OMG!

its like parang deja vu..haha (ang landi!ahaha)

eh kasi ganito yon, kahapon lumabas ako with a friend tapos lahat ng ngyari noong magkasama kami parehong-pareho ng ngyari noon kay m.u. (royce makakarelate ka d2..haha).

scenario:

nauna ako dumating sa SM. natraffic kasi xa. tumambay ako sa National, napabili ng book. pinagtawanan un book na bili ko. nanuod kami movie.

after ng movie..gulat na ko lalo sa mga narinig ko..

“masaya ka naman ba?”
“thank you ah.”
san?
“sa pagsama sakin ngayon.”

waaaaa gulat ako!parehong pareho sila ng sinabi. hanggang pauwi, nagte-thank you. hanggang sa text nagte-thank you.

GOSH!!

halos mawindang na ko..haha

noong una kasi kami lumabas ni m.u. dati, ganitong ganito din ngyari. as in same scenario, same place at same words pa sila.haha buong araw na parang multong nagpaparamdam si m.u. kahapon..haha

eto pa, yung book na binili ko ay isang dating comic script sa isang newspaper na binabasa ko dati kaya noong nakita ko sa National na may book na yung comic script, binili ko..tinititigan ko yung book noong nagbabayad ako, saka ko lan narealize na nickname pala ni m.u. un title nun book.haha

kakatuwa ang araw ko kahapon. aside sa parang multong nagpaparamdam si m.u., ang haba rin ng hair ko..haha

mr.ministop..salamat! baka masanay na ko nito.haha royce..salamat sa time at mga kwento..sori nakatulog ako.haha

I’ve seen this scenario before.

Don’t say I didn’t warn you. Haish bro, your still young, you can find somebody else. You will meet the right one, when the time is right. We siblings agree on one thing and we know its true.

“Kung magmahal xe kayo, BUO. kaya pag nasaktan kayo, buo din.”–ate mae

see?

we all agree on that, right?

try to cheer up for now honhon. You’ll get over it. You just need time.
Let go honhon and accept the truth so you’ll get over it soon.

waaaaa

grabe! Indi na q makapetix..haha

araw-araw nalang may exam, araw-araw nalang may practical tas next week, start na ng panibagong kalbaryo..ang pagda-disect ng pating at pagkatapos ng 4 na araw..pusa naman.

OO, tama nabasa nio..
Shark, a.k.a dogfish; Rhizopriodon acutus.
Cat; Felis domestica. haha

puchaa!!

indi na q nakakatulog ng maaus..
ang tulog ko, 4-5hours nalang pag weekdays..
tas namemental block parin pag exams na..amp!

eto pa, akalain nio, sa takaw ko..bihira na q makapag bisyo ngaun..hehe
halos indi na q nakakakain sa oras araw-araw..
may araw pa na nakakalimutan kong inde pa pala ako kumakain sa dami ng mga ginagawa o dami ng gagawin..tas pag dadating q naman dito sa bahay, kung inde ako makakaidlip, dami ko naman ginagawa..

GOSH!!

papayat na ko lalo..haha

instant diet ito! haha

gagala talaga ako pagkatapos ng summer class! babawi ako!haha

**trip ko magreklamo sa blog..walang kokontra..haha**

LOL..haha

It’s been a month now and I think it’s about time to stop all the dramas. I should be done with the sleepless nights, no appetite scenario, going home almost drunk and starting the day with a hang over. (it’s not mainly because of  toooot that I had been going home almost drunk..)

haha!

Silly me! I don’t even have to be like that. Good thing, I happen to experience all that silliness when I was at home last holy week. There are so many questions in my head, but I’ll be leaving it for now. In time I know those questions will be answered. So, I’ll raise all the questions to ‘Bro’. I know ‘Bro’ will answer them in the right time.

I should be enjoying my self this days, not letting my self drown in sadness and confusions. You can be a ghost as long as you want. It’s your life. It’s your choice. From now on, I will start enjoying my self again. (specially in the last days of summer! )

ONE month and few days to go, regular classes will resume and I hope, when our paths meet again, I’m as happy as before I had this dream.

Thank you. Good luck!

**DISCLAIMER: hinde lahat makakarelate sa blog na to. If you know the story, keep it to your self. hehe **

Hintayin mo ko–the phrase I would not like to hear again from a special someone.

Months ago, I heard this phrase again. Remembering this phrase makes me bitter. It’s because the first time someone ever asked me to wait for him for two weeks end up nothing. After two weeks we broke up.

For the second time, I heard this phrase again. Few months ago, someone asked me this again. I said yes, I know how to wait as long as I know I have something to wait for. Weeks after I heard that phrase, I heard it again.. This time, he asks me to wait for him for two to three months.

Ako kaya ang babae! Bat ako ang maghihintay??–my commonly bitter reaction everytime I remember that. hehe

Gosh! Whats up with guys?

Their asking me to wait for them but their taking things for granted. I hate remembering this phrase. It really hurts me.

For Mr.27, the second guy that asked me to wait for him, monday will be the first month that I have been waiting. And I think I’m going to stop on monday. Its because for the whole month, I didn’t heard anything from him since he left. Although I made efforts for communication I didn’t received any reply.

For ten, the third guy, I don’t know if I’m going to wait.

Well for now, I’m really confused.

One of our common friends told me to wait for him. I don’t know what got into him. I thinks its kinda unusual for he knows the whole story as of my other close friends. I don’t know if he got any communication with Mr.27 for him to tell me those things.

Bitter node..

Eerytime I hear the songs that he usually sings and the songs that reminds me of him makes me miss him more. And at some point, I hate it.

“hintayin mo ko..”
a very powerful phrase that makes me feel sad and bitter. hmpf!